Maybe social media isn't all that

I've become a bit addicted to Instagram. It's not that serious, though I guess I do check whether I've gotten a message quite a lot. Maybe not having notifications turned on doesn't help. 

I've decided I'm going to try and kick that habit, maybe focus on the blog instead. Maybe focus on life instead. I don't think it's made me happier, in fact I guess it's made me more frustrated than necessary. 

There's barely anything worth checking out on Instagram. Okay, there's some cool stuff, but that's the case anywhere online. People sharing hobbies and interests, cool photos - they're not exactly hard to find. They're also all on Instagram, which is why I don't see myself realistically getting rid forever.

It's the social aspect which annoys me more than anything else. To me, Instagram doesn't really feel social, it's more like walking into a gallery and staring at all the paintings. Posts don't really make people socialise, rather people will just stare, say "yeah that's decent", and move on. 

I mean, what's the point? Yes, there's the messaging part, and that's another reason I'll probably never ditch Instagram for good. But that's not really Instagram, is it? It just so happens to be under the same name.

All of this means I'm maybe more frustrated than I should be. I know social media is a massive sham, hell everyone knows that. And maybe I'm a bit irritated people won't flock to this blog, rather they want to be embraced by the comforting blue light of a selfie. Yet I'm not sure social media is all that for me.

And trust me, I know social media. At least the generic side of it, not so much the social part. For most of my life, I wasn't on any social media because I'd rather read or write. I did spend some time on Twitter several years back, back when it was still called Twitter, and it wasn't great, but I'd like to imagine it was better than it is now. I'll never come back, though, because I don't see a reason to. Unlike Instagram.

I am also aware that if I took social media seriously back then, I'd ironically have fewer problems with it now. It feels like everyone socialises online nowadays, or at least a version of it. If I was more plugged in, maybe I wouldn't be so frustrated.

But I wasn't plugged in in the first place, so here I am instead. Well done, algorithm, you got me. I hope I can give a better fight back next time.